At 34 years old I had a heart attack and spent 5 days in the hospital. At the time, I was a single mother with three children that had recently moved to a new community.
There was no warning or preparation and it left me feeling alone and hopeless. Since I have never been one to sit and dwell I began a podcast and blog interviewing others that had been given a second chance at life.
My near death experience had scared me and it didn’t take long to realize many others have had them as well. Over the next year and a half, I was sent to multiple doctors, tried many alternative methods and received therapy from three different psychologists.
Over this time I was healing from sexual abuse when I was younger, grief from all the changes that happened as well as coping with an unstable heart condition. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, symptoms of PTSD and they had thought this was the reason for my chest pain.
There were many surprises along the way. I learned who the people in my life were I could truly count on, added many new teachers in my life and found Jesus at Easter.
I was baptized in a little town on Vancouver Island in a beautiful river and became a Christian. As I began to learn about God’s love and Grace I experienced many miracles and began to see the world through different eyes.
Gratitude became a very big part of my life, and I began to enjoy what I had in my life instead of continuing to grieve all of the things I had perceived I had lost.
Those things appeared to be many; my two oldest children moved quite far away when their father bought a home, I lost my vehicle, went into debt, moved into a basement suite and was not able to return to my job.
Thankfully I received long-term disability, but there was a constant threat looming that I would be cut off since it took so long to figure out why I was still having daily chest pains. Along the way, I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, and the difficult part was to determine if it caused the chest pains or if the chest pains caused the anxiety disorder.
Gratitude helped me to realize that life is a gift and every day really is a second chance. Grace and forgiveness helped me find self-love, healing and peace.
The day came I was given an appointment with a top Cardiologist, the third I had seen. She was able to find out what happened to cause a heart attack and why I was still suffering from daily chest pains.
This moment was truly glorious!! After 17 months, I was given an answer and told that I could start running again.
Now comes the true healing, and I head down that path very optimistically.
There are many different paths to healing and everyone has different needs. As I walk I invite you to walk along with me, for as long as you are meant to, until you find your own way of healing.
Please feel welcome to join in the communities I am creating. I believe we heal better together as a community and my dream is that no one shall have to be alone while healing again.